2.22.2011

a goodbye to my inner drama queen



i've come to the conclusion that i take life way too seriously.
and people too literally.

and i'm learning that this tends to get in the way of me living the authentic, independent, self-sufficient, charitable, colorful, happy life i strive to live everyday.

i go in phases where i'm better at gracefully handling random situations
& then i ebb a little & fall apart.

so:
here's to creating a new-found caliber of angie-lightheartedness.

*working harder to have the spirit, rather than my feelings, guide my choices.
*developing thicker skin against comments & opinions that pierce my sensitive soul.
*taking situations & people that i need to with a grain of salt.
*avoiding gossiping/venting-like the plague.
*facing my day with optimism & gratitude.
*solving problems with the lord & having faith that he can heal, help, and make right.
*seeking for opportunities to serve

a smart man [my dad] once said,
"life is an adventure to be enjoyed, not a problem to be solved."

when i leave this life, i want to say just that- i enjoyed it.
i had joy.

i feel joy daily,
but i want to immerse myself in it & not get hung up on random worries/fears.

i'm absolutely [done]
spending my time worried about who's going to judge me & why.
or who thinks i've gained too much weight.
or who thinks i'm a flake.
or whether i am ever going to be able to afford nice things.
or who got the blessing i feel like i "deserved."
or who has wronged me in the past.

*that is all self-serving worry, and i'm going [no where] with it.

i am who i am & more importantly I KNOW who i am.
i know i'm doing my very best with this stewardship god has gifted me.
i am celebrating my own individuality because that is what i was entrusted with.
i continually fall short, but i know that i have heavenly help.

life is really good.
and it's time to really, really believe it.

***

ps:
what helps you to REALLY enjoy life?


pps:
grapes had nothing to do with this post.

i just thought they were happy.

20 comments:

The Owens said...

I really loved your post!! I need to be that way! I wear my heart on my sleeve and I am so sensitive to everything!! Here's to thicker skin for sure!! BTW - I think you are gorgeous and you should never care about what anyone says. I have always thought you were a very outgoing person who seemed to really enjoy life.. so keep doing what you are doing X10 :D

Lisa Romer Keele said...

You're such an amazing person. I hope you know that you're not the only person that worries about these things even though we shouldn't. Remember you're amazing!
PS. I LOVE your Dad's qoute!

Coree Adams said...

Ang...I love your guts!

Laura O'Connell said...

You write what is in my heart; amazing!

Bev said...

You and your sweet little blog are what really, really, really help me enjoy life!! You are awesome and I love that you can give me advice and guide me and I listen!!
Here's my quote: "screw 'em if they can't take a joke".....not quite the caliber of your Dad's....but hey, they can't all be gems!!

granny said...

Masterful. We all need to do exactly what you expressed.

What helps me enjoy life? Serving others. It sounds trite, and {hopefully not} braggy. I don't do it enough, and I don't always hit the mark, but hey, we try. I kinda forget my woes when I see the woes suffered by others.

runningfan said...

I posted pics of my newborn babies on my wall to help me remember to keep an eye on the prize. I think you've done that before with bulletin boards -- hanging up stuff to remind you where you're going, what you're doing, etc. You're always an inspiration! Love you.

KP said...

Loved this post because it's so honest. I take life too seriously too. I feel like I'm always thinking about the future and what needs to be accomplished and its hard for me to just sit back and enjoy the NOW. This post really made me feel better and know that i'm not the only person who struggles with this. And, this post might help guide me in the same direction you're going :)
THanks, Angie!

The Wizzle said...

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming...you are awesome and the world needs more Angie!

And those are some seriously happy grapes. :)

Brittany Marie Trevino said...

extraordinary! brilliant!
i too am going through EXACTLY what you write. i worry wayyyy to much about little, stupid stuff, in the grand scheme of things. you are so insightful and reading your blog always puts a smile on my face. what makes me really enjoy life? a number of things, but one is sitting outside in the sunshine!

Lindsee said...

What I have leared recently is that if I do all the things I should everyday, then I don't have the energy to "dwell" on the things that get me down. And then I am happier, which makes me like myself more, which then makes other peoples negativity not sink in so deep. When it comes to me, I worry about what other people think too much mostly when "I" am not happy with myself.

That's all.

Emily, Julia, and Annie said...

Um I want to be you when I grow up. You=the bomb

Heidi Durfee said...

When you figure out how to not "vent" to keep your blood pressure even please let me know, 'cause that is something I keep trying and failing at! :)

Your posts are inspirational.

I never would have guessed you feel some of these things! You have always seemed to enjoy life to me - and are confident and beautiful in every way!

Jolene George said...

I can't tell you how much I love you Miss Angie! You are so insiring to me in every.single.way. xoxo

becky said...

totally agree ange. at the top of my blog it says "enjoying life"... not that i always do, but it is a good reminder that i should!! you are amazing, love ya!!

Durfee Family said...

You're probably wondering, "who's Heidi Durfee!" LOL! Oops, looks like I was logged in as my daughter! It's just lil'o me!

<3 ya!

Kaytie Brown said...

VERY happy grapes. Thanks for the reminder of what is joy. Love ya!!
Always,

Kayt

west coast girl said...

thanks, angie- i needed that today. He wants us to be happy- and we should be. i think i am guilty of taking myself too seriously too. :)

michael said...

love you and your attitude Deb

Megs said...

this is why I love your blog!!

you are so inspirational and make me want to try better as well. the feelings that you express are the same feelings I experience as well and it is so wonderful to hear someone talk about it and how to overcome it. I love it. and I love you! Thank you so much for being so open and honest and truly an amazing example!